well, where to start....... bands i saw: Parkway drive, Airbourne, The Grates , Mudvayne , Wolfmother, ( a bit of Faker, Gerling & Braxton), Magic Dirt , (a bit of the white stripes), Shihad.   I think that's it.  The day was hot and muggy.  Parklands was full of small, big, fair, tanned, tattooed, dreadlocked and plenty more sorts of people.  We were all there for one common reason.  The music and a kick arse time.  Granted Mudvayne's set got split in half and wolfmother played late but all in all the day was fabulous.    My fav live band once again is Shihad.  They never fail to impress.  We rocked up during shot in the head.  As soon as we got our spot only meters from the stage and i got my eyes locked on Jon I was set.  Since seeing them play with Grinspoon on the Show Pony Express Tour I haven't had such an awesome time.  I can't wait till they record again and tour again.  How bloody fabulous that'll be.  Jon did his crowd surfing stint and as per usual the entire band rocked out with the crowd.  They really do make you feel important even if they can't really see you and you are only 1 of at least a few hundred peeps there.   Parkway drive were impressive and i'm pretty psyched their coming to Toowoomba, that will be a lot of fun.   Can't wait till bdo next year as i'll be able to check out lillyworld.  Anywho i could rant all day about how fabulous bdo was and how great shihad and all the other bands were but it would get far too long and boring. By far THE BEST BDO I'VE BEEN TOO WITH THE BEST LINE UP nice work to everyone who did their part to make it work on Sunday!

I went to the Mary Magdalene/farewell to this city gig on Friday night.  It was wonderful.  All of the bands were great and i was mightily impressed and heartached to see them go.. Wraithriel and Princess Rodeo were amazing as per usual.  Cross the lips of grace were good also, although i'm not a huge fan of the hardcore music genre they were great to see live and to see the boys dancing was also awesome.  It's sad to see so many swell peeps/musicians leave to head to brissie this year but they'll all come back with more experience and would be a lot happier.  so anywho the gig was awesome.  Thanks to rhys and les for supporting the scene for all of these years and finishing off with a bang.  Best of luck to Princess with their recordings, can't wait to hear that and Wraithriel, The Orphanarium and Mary Mag's recordings.  I am so proud of these guys for doing something with their talents.  Mary mags demo is pretty darn sweet!   For those kids on bris keep and ear and eye out for these surreal toowoomba bands cuz they will blow you out of the water!    

Today was pretty darn good. I slept in till just before lunch time and then made my way downtown.  I started at one end of the cbd - opshopping and finished at the other end.  Simple as that! half way through i had a meeting about a car loan but that was not fun, i couldn't stop yawning.  Anywho i spent just under $30 and got some of the coolest stuff ever.  Stuff i never thought i'd own or wear.. It's a great feeling.  can't wait till i go to the 2 gigs on this weekend, shall be swell.   My only bitch for the day would have to be a complaint about the thickness of my juice from juice for life, it was watery, way water,  it was meant to be mostly mango but i couldn't taste any mango, only watery pineapple juice.   The good thing is if that's all i have to bitch about, then i had a fabulous day.

i've made a group of new friends, they're wonderful.  A beautiful friendship has blossomed with them, all until my close friends started thinking my new friends were there's.  One friend went through a phase where she was having sex more than needed or at least more than anyone wanted to know.  So, we got through that, it's taken a couple of months for peeps to realise i'm my own person and what my friends do and don't do doesn't directly mean that that reflects my own personality.  So that's all well and good and all sorted now, we all go through weird and not so proud stages, me of all people know that.  My other friend just informed me she went to a party i told her about with her friend from years ago.  Both were drinking.  Apparantly my friends old friend was continuously talking about sex to these peeps and i couldn't imagine them appreciating a sex addict.  Actually i know that they don't, they would've tollerated her but just like my other friend they would've had much to say afterwards.  Just to top things off apparantly this girl punched one of my guy friends behind the head as he was having a go at her.  (which was probably called for).  So, what to think about my friends.   Why must they be so... i don't know ? "I love them more than life itself but they're both fucking mad" as ozzy osbourne would say. I wish that i had the friendship and bond i have with my 2 good friends with just a couple of my new friends.  it's not far off and i'm more than happy to visit and hang out with them without anyone to join me.  I think i will do that from now on.

a whole new year is ahead, i have so many plans for this year.  first up is to party hard for new years. following that will be a farewell gig thanks to mary magdalene.  A good half of the bandsters/scenesters are heading to bris this year coming so there will only be a few of us left.  Between then and my b'day i'm sure there will be plenty more gigs.  Then it will be my b'day (which today is 4 months and 4 days away) on the 4th may.  I'm organising a gig for aleisha and i to have for our 18ths, so far i know that Wraithriel are playing.  Also that week we will be going pubbing in toowoomba (thursday night), sometime after that we will be going clubbin in brisbane and clubbing in the gold coast.  In between all of that i will be getting some ink and going skydiving.  As soon as i recover and my funds recover i will be going to visit dean in darwin.   oh! i soooo can't wait to see him.  It's been far tooooo long.  I think that one day i might disappear with dean, one day we might just run away together.  I think that i'd like that.  The only problem is i love my family and tend to plan my life 2 - 3 years in advance.  But i can be quite spontaneous and if the time is right i might just do it.   anyways, i wouldn't be keen to do that for a few years though. so, other than that i'm going to finish my homeschooling asap, work lots and then go overseas for 1-2 years.  can't wait! My best friend is going to come with me.  We're going to travel through argentina, the caribbean and europe.  canada would also be nice.  We'll figure it out a bit closer to the date though, at the moment it's all a magical dream. I am also going to get a loan and buy a car in the next couple of weeks.  That'll be exciting! Then we'll head out to big day out which will be amazing.  The line up this year is surreal, i'm so exciting.  So much Aussie talent!   So, for now i'm going to carry on dreaming, working and relaxing at home until i have enough money saved to start doing all these things.   

i do believe that everyone has felt this before and have been able to bathe in it's delights or throw it in the trash can (with some work).                                 That feeling is heartache  Whether it's good or bad.  I'm stuck in between the good and bad atm.  I've known of this certain person for a good while now and have always been intrigued and quite spellbound by him but never thought he would ever become aware of me. Monday night I was lucky enough to spend the night talking, drinking etc with him.  It was just beautiful, we just clicked and i felt like i had known him forever.  You know that butterfly feeling you get like you've been together forever but mixed with that excitement of just meeting someone and having everything fall into place?  I still feel like that in a way, weird. After he left the party I spoke to a mutual friend.  I asked him if he was like a couple of other guys we knew who only wanted women as a one night type thing.  The response was mixed.  He wasn't a womaniser all of the time, but of course had his moments. I thought about that and decided i would let him contact me, although he hasn't got my number/email etc.  I thought that if he really wanted to talk to me or see me again he'd be able to get my number.  (that is realistic as i'm good friends with a number of his friends and his bro) So, the dilemma i face now is - should i contact him or just wait to run into him again.  There's a high chance i'll see him at a gig tomorrow night. Do you guys think i should talk to him about stuff or just say hi and see where it goes? I am pretty sure i'll just say hi and see how it goes, i just need some reassurance! and i would love to hear if you've been in similar situations and how it's panned out.  POST A COMMENT! cheers  

i am now not cutting off my dreads spontaneously, when i feel like i'm doing it 100% for myself i will but until then i will enjoy my dreads as i do love them very muchly! thanks for the responses also, it was very nice  

well, here's for being a seedy human being! I had a great night .  There were quite a few of us enjoying each other's company and getting quite drunk.  It's amazing how so many personal barriers come down when you're quite intoxicated.  At one stage a few friends were dancing around in the park across the road with only their underwear on.   Wow, we're all either nuts or feel way to comfortable with each other. I got to know a guy i've been intrigued by for ages so that was my highlight.  I love spending time with people and getting to know them.  I think everyone had a great night and we all had our various highlights.  I just feel so happy atm although quite seedy. You know when you don't have a hangover but you still feel quite dodgy.  That's where i'm at.   Those crazy kids want to do it all again tonight! blimey anywho i feel good now i've shared.

It's funny the things teenagers go through.  At the start of the year I felt like doing something drastic and spontaneous.  So, I went to the hairdresser, sat down for 9 hours, payed $450 and got dreadlocks.  Since then I have coloured them, waxed them, washed them, twisted them, plaited them etc.  I am now at a point where I don't want to be called a hippie , a greenie, and treated like absolute shit .  If a greenie or whatever was truely who i was inside i wouldn't give a rats but i'm not and it's really frustrating having people treat you differently.   If I had long, uncoloured hair and didn't have my lebret and nose pierced I have to wonder how the small minded town i live in would treat me then.  anywayz i feel a bit better now.  I really want to try something new and get a totally different look.  Although! I can't do that until my hair grows a bit more because if i were to cut my dreads off now i'd have about 2 inches of hair all over my head.  If you guys have any pics of chicks with short hair that look pretty awesome, send them to me via email - dire_paws@hotmail.com   so that's me blogged for a little while.  My main point i tried to achieve above was that people are so narrow minded and even though they like to think they're fair and open minded they can't help but look at youth these days and be disgusted.   All we do is express ourselves, we all do it differently .  Some wear black, some have piercings, some wear whatever they can find and safety pin it together, some have coloured hair, some wear boots, some wear crosses, some wear spikes, some wear skirts, some wear pants, some speak out loud, some keep to themselves, some paint, some draw, some take photographs.  When it comes down to it my generation express themselves in many ways and we do it creatively and honestly but if we don't fit the top 40 mold we are discriminated against. i'm sick of it, not sure about you guys.

MUSCAS! After the original Muscas (12 March 2005) went off with a bang I started work on the second Muscas (29 October 2005).  It's amazing how far Muscas has come in only 2 events.  First Muscas we had - Finabah, Sons Of Apathy, Black Jazz and (Toowoomba's finest young metal band) Wriathriel.    The second Muscas we had - The Cuts (Toowoomba's most awesome punk band), Princess Rodeo, The Orphanarium, Little Big Horn and of course Wraithriel.  Not only that we had a 'Grunge Shop' Supplied and supported by Lifeline.  The Grunge Shop went off - the selection of clothing, shoes, hats and belts was endless and people are still raving about it.  We had our own canteen with hot pies and sausage rolls supplied by my lovely parents and their bakery - Reeves Hot Bread.  We launched a mini art zine which showcased local black and white artwork.  The winner who's art was found most creative and original received a voucher from a local Art Shop and Gallery.  Hannah suarez was the winner.  The bands actually got a green room.  Dad and I cooked them up fluro coloured marble cupcakes and savoury muffins. Overall it was awesome and quite successful.  Can't wait for what 2006 will bring! funding for a festival? more mini muscas'! - whatever happens will be awesome.   Below is a pic of Jonesy (behind) (lead singer/guitarist of The Cuts) and Mitch (guitarist of Wriathriel) - both highly talented musicians, awesome people and heaps of fun